today i had so much emotions running through mi.. alot of things i wanna voiced out... not angry.. not sad... more of disappointed ba.. shall elaborate ltr..

.:: Wednesday::.
had the role-play interview today.. wore formal to school.. haha.. veri interesting.. n i got nice comments from the teacher.. did not know tt i did so well... was so nervous when i went in till i couldnt speak at all !! lolz.. but in the end i did well... all thanks to spencer... he guided mi the previous night lol..

went for cls farewell party in the afternoon.. took lotsa pictures.. but wasnt enjoying myself at all.. more of like observing things ba.. so caught in the middle.. i realli dont know wat to do.. its like tearing myself into half lo.. think kiat will know wat i meant ba.. it realli hurts mi to see things come to this state lo.. haiz.. besides tt i realli do noticed abt alot other things too...
ppl often say appearances doesnt matter.. but think carefully.. all ur little actions state otherwise.. there's alot of hidden meanings behind tt sentences..

i realli left the farewell thingy feeling quite down... veri depressed.. veri disappointed...

.::Thursday::.
went for massT tutorial.. haiz.. dont wanna mention the details k.. i realli feel so sad...i realli hope tt the barrier betw u gals will be over soon.. haiz..
met up wif zhen gal at harbour front.. lol.. i made a new fren today.. haha.. n tts kenneth.. the super duper ultimate lame n rubbish guy..
i was in a real dead mode when i met him.. couldnt crap back wif him.. the bits n pieces of tt thing realli did affected mi alot..
3 of us sun tanned.. played cards.. learned a new game today again.. veri interesting game.. a few magic tricks lolz..

after the sentosa trip.. mi n zhen went to holland v to meet up wif shufen n co... cos she asked us out for dinner to celebrate her bday.. =) went to shufen's restaurant to meet her wif her n beng.. can u believe it she's the co-owner of the restaurant...

i loved the restaurant to every bits man... the ambience is so damn nice... n the food are simply delicious... omg... cheewee mi zhen beng shufen dillon lingzi n rh was there.. crapped around n everything.. i dont know why the emotional spell hit mi again... suddenly i was damn freaking pms.. i realli cant help being bothered by it..

i left early... came home.. sat in front of the com.. n typed all these... i realli damn disappointed n sad abt wats going on... seriously its my first time i cried bcos of friendship... i realli did cry now.. couldnt care less.. shall blog everything out.. i can see everything falling apart betw the gals n yet i dont know wat i can do.. i feel so helpless.. not to mention the gals.. the guys also..

come on.. admit it.. every friendship has its ups n downs.. n u cant expect it to be so damn smooth sailing.. why cant ppl jus forgive n forget... i know the gals used to isolate mi for awhile.. n true enough.. i realli did grumble abt their attitude.. but i will stil treat them as my frens.. forget everything... yes.. i admit mayb some of them do have attitude... n mayb even mi at times.. but no one's perfect...

u all had our happi times together... n now bcos of a stupid short-coming or fault u found in each other's character.. things turned ugly ? how would u feel if u are the innocent party ??

and for those ppl whu keep thinking we girls have a poor attitude.. n not friendly or sociable n all... go back n think abt ur attitude then.. stop picking on us.. have u even tot tt u ppl treat us indifferently.... or bcos u ppl showed us attitude first... i realli did a serious tot man.... i can even swear to god tt i treat u ppl even better than how u ppl treat us lo... i dont give attitude un-necessarily... i always even try to appear cheerful so tt no one will get affected... n not onli mi.. i am sure sz they all also lidat...

go back n think of ur fucking attitude man......... since when i did i showed attitude to u ppl without any reason..... u ppl realli pissed mi off.. n to think tt u all only seems to know on picking on other's weakness.... why not the other way round... go n pick on ur own weakness then?